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a felicitous new year to everyone. nothing much to talk about. i mean, i have TONNES of things to talk about. things that is buried deep in my heart that disoblige me greatly. nevertheless, this cyber webpage that is much open to the public is not the place that i have trust in. my diary is collecting dust as i am too lazy to write. i am suppose to go to a cell meeting around 3pm but now that i had mentioned the taboo word - lazy - i have not much interest in going out of the house or even getting up in this comfortable chair that i am in. yes, here me rattle on about nonsense. i only do this for the sake of practising my english and to update my ageing blog.


well now what shall we talk about today. what about the embarrassment of going on stage with the whole class and sing an incomprehensible song because if you don't, you might feel guilty of standing up with your class. well it was okay if i am positioned far behind those cheesy people who had decided that this is just another chance to unite one another, but no, my face is exposed to the whole world as i am placed in front. well, i felt that if i didn't go our dearest form teacher would condemn me. that is just my assumption. he does look down to people who are infidel. so what can i do? but honestly, it is okay for me. i am just complaining for the sake of being able to put some contents on this corny blog.


another subject that we must talk about is non other than my drama club's performance. once again, we manifested our talents in front of the crowd. well it was not as good as our previous performances. it was average. i am partly responsible and to be blamed for this fiasco. i backed out. yes, it is a thing that i would not usually do but did so. i just do not feel like acting for this time round. i am already to exposed and i wanted others, like marx, to have a chance. another rationale is that i think the script is nada. sorry but i thought it was. not to hurt the feelings of those who contributed. and i know i should not judge as i myself did not help with the script. yet again i did not assist them with writing the script as i felt i should let other people try. i gave reasons like: i am a christian and my faith denounces horoscopes therefore i chose not to. well that IS TRUE. though i only thought of that reason for the last minute. however, my mom actually forbade me to join. so, there it goes. anyways, the sec ones are doing quite good. especially syaza. superb i say.


i gave mr amin and ms yee hong paos. well it should be the other way round but hell with that. i am going to miss this two dearly as they are going overseas to study. that ms yee especially. she was like "this is my last performance with all of you" and i was like "GO AWAY LAH!!!". i mean, i feel so bad and dismayed that she is leaving. i have been living the last months of last year in that state and it worsens every passing day. she, on the other hand, magnifies this demoralization. yes, i know what you are thinking! EVIL! i thought so too. but do not say that because if you do i am going to beat you till you bleed.


a lot of alumni came back. one such beloved alum is dawina who is my sister in drama. khadijah, my most beloved lost friend who was looking for her most beloved norazura came too. i miss them so much! joyce did not come as she thinks that going back at this time is of no significance. plus, she just got her operation therefore she needs to rest. habel did not go, though his friend hafiz, azree and shadiqin were present. this is because he is engrossed in work. naqia is studying and therefore is unable to come. well, that is okay with me as they are coming back on the tenth of febuary.


well, that is all i have in store.


peace out y'all